...therein lies the rub, the catch, the thing that blocks our way, changes the game, the source of the problem. One of the most misquoted lines of Shakespeare.
"Therein lies the rub
For in that sleep of death we know not what dreams may come...."
sorting out the problem, getting to the root of the object of my misery has had me tied in knots these past few days.
As you are well aware I took quite a tumble a few weeks ago and, along with bruising my pride and embarrassing myself to the core, I fractured (ever so slightly) a few ribs. Recovery has gone very well and it's not complete torture to try and sneeze or cough again. But here comes that 'rub' part. It would seem that I occurred some stress fractures in my foot as well. Unbeknown to me I have been walking these past few weeks on said fractures and have now developed a rather serious condition called Charcot Foot.
Charcot is a neurological disorder of the foot caused by a breakdown of joints, nerves and bone, that are due to neuropathy (loss of feeling), which I have from being diabetic forever. The mid-section of the foot collapses changing the entire shape of the foot and leaving it at a high risk for ulcers and further fractures. This is where I am at right now.
The treatment is no-weight-bearing for 4-6-8 weeks while the foot is in an acute stage. If we can get the breakdown cycle to end and the healing cycle to begin during that time there is a greater chance of recovery. If not...well, I'm here to tell you that I can not go to that place again for it is how I 'lost' my right foot fifteen years ago.
For now I am sitting, sitting, and sitting some more since crutches are out (can't use crutches when you have one broken foot and one prosthetic foot). I do have a wheelchair to get around the house in or if need be to use when we go out. I will need a ramp though if I expect to leave the house! I also have this funky little scooter that you kneel on with your bad side and then push off on with the good side. Again though, I have no good side! This has become quite an interesting learning tool and the curve at this moment is quite low.
so y'all, there's the rub.