...where I give you a snapshot of my wild and wonderful weekend, whether it be an actual snap or a figment of my imagination.
these are the blueberry fields near our home. The old home and barn are empty and dilapidated and the fields abandoned. Until recently I didn't know they were even here. I took my chances and explored a little but it was rather muddy so I will keep it in mind for next summer and see if I can get some sweet blueberries...yum.
I feel rather 'nesty' lately. I can only assume that it has to do with my upcoming surgery next Monday. To say that I have real concerns about this surgery is quite the understatement. Some of the possible complications are quite severe and have me reeling at the thought. I prefer to be an informed patient but I think that having a medical background is not always to my benefit.
Although I don't want this to become a medical blog, this is a huge part of my life right now and the support I get from you can make all the difference in the world. I also have an upcoming post on this kind of cancer and the treatments thereof.
I have a doctors appointment every.day.this.week. grrr...
by the time Monday comes I probably will be glad to get the rest!
Whenever I have a surgery, vacation or the like planned, I always feel the nesty need. I must get my house cleaned and things in order. Not in case I don't come home but in case I have visitors. Besides, I like coming home to a clean house. I must get some meals cooked and in the freezer, shopping is done, laundry will never be done. Most things are under control at this point...except me.
In an honest confession that I can only reveal here; I am so very uncertain about all of this. I am uncomfortable with the entire situation and if I had my choice I would not have the surgery. I realize it is cancer but I would rather take what time I have left enjoying my family and waiting for my grandbabygirl to get here. I regret telling my children about any of this as I know they would never forgive me for being too tired to fight anymore. I wish they could understand...I wish I could.
take care peeps, thanks for the well wishes, and PLEASE no lectures. I'm just not up to it.