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Lucy Maud Montgomery

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Trail of Tears...


I hate to be a complainer, O.K., I don't like it.  I don't like the way it feels, the way it sounds nor the level of stress it causes me.  But there are times when life hands you so damn many lemons but forgets to throw in the sugar and water...so it sucks. 

 It also makes for a very depressing blog so even though I could write the blog of misery I choose not to.  I choose life.  But this week life has chosen our family.

A couple of weeks ago I asked you all to keep me in your thoughts and send up some good wishes on a wing and a prayer for me as I was having some tests done.  Afterwards, I couldn't say much about what was happening since my children were out of town and unavailable for a special talk.  With that done and everyone on the same page I will let my bloggy friends know that I have been diagnosed with Thyroid cancer, papillary to be exact with the high probability of lymphoma.  I will be having a lymph node resection on Oct. 8 and we will go forward with treatment at that time.  I am not yet sure of what treatment will involve, it depends on that little lymph node, but, this type of cancer is very treatable and highly survivable.  In fact, I am sure several of you have gone through this and will be a great help to me.

That aside, last night my mother-in-law had a stroke.  They called it a TIA all day but upgraded it to a stroke tonight.  She is resting well, and in fact was the first one to tell me that she had gone to the hospital.  *she has her cell phone in the room with her*  She does have some short term memory loss (she kept asking me the same question over and over) and some numbness in her tongue which causes her to slur her words.  We have been assured by the doctor that these things will improve over the next few days as they get her new meds adjusted.

As much as I love and care for my in-laws, the drama that is that family is very difficult for me to handle.  I am trying to step back and stay out of the way of the barbs and insults that continue even now.  I can't be part of something so stupid when someone is sick and especially when it puts my own health in danger.  I have to protect my heart...I have to.  If that comes across as harsh then I do apologize...it is what I have to do.   Is it Friday yet??

22 comments:

  1. oh my...i am sending positve healing vibes and prayers your way...
    erin

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  2. I couldn't fall asleep, so I got up and came to my computer to check out white wednesday. I randomly am looking at only a few. By accident I looked at yours. I hope you believe in our Father in Heaven. Because I do, and I know that he has sent me here.

    A few months ago I discovered a lump on the right side of my throat. Three weeks ago I had it checked. Was sent to an ENT specialist. Had a CT Scan. Prognosis, pappilary cancer. Most comon, easiest to treat. I had surgery the following week. They had a machine in the operating room that could tell immediately if it was benine or malignant. The tumor was growing out of the top of one side of the Thyroid. 99% benine! The tumer and 1/2 of the thyroid was taken out. I stayed in the hospital that day and night, then was released the next day. It needed to be tested, every cell. If one cell was mutated, it was malignant.
    4 days later I was told that there was no cancer. I have a 2 inch scar on my neck and will have to take thyroid medicine the rest of my life.

    I am so grateful to have received so many tender mercies. I sincerly will pray to you and the outcome.
    You can e-mail me at cindygeilmann@yahoo.com, if you like. You can also visit my blog and read a little about it. cindy-stitches-n-stuff.blogspot.com

    Big Hugs
    cindy@stitches

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  3. I know we don't know each other, but I feel like we do. I am sending prayers of healing for you and your family. You all need it! I have heard a lot about this type of cancer just in the last week. My nephew's wife just had this same surgery only a week ago. My hairdresser also has had her thyroid removed. I am praying that you are able to have positive results. Take care of yourself. I am thinking of you!

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  4. This is me wrapping my arms around you and giving you a big hug and a shoulder. I will be praying for you.

    I have goosebumps reading Cindy's comment.

    Try to surround yourself with those that are positive and caring and skip the family drama. I know exactly what you mean because drama is so exhausting and YOU need to take care of YOU.

    Big, Big hugs, Marla

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  5. Hi I just stumbled across your blog... and I am so sorry that you are going through this.
    I know that I don't know you and you don't know me but I am compelled to tell you that you'll go 'THROUGH' (Psalm 23) this not setting up camp and staying there the rest of your life.
    I will pray for you and I will hope with you. I ask you to listen to what is good, encouraging, kind and hopeful. Because those are some of the characteristics of God's voice. Let go of the rest of it. I will be praying,
    deborah

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  6. hugs and prayers... do you talk to ness? shes a thyroid cancer survivor. shes been computerless for a couple weeks but she is quite the inspiration!
    love you.

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  7. Sending lots of positive energy your way. I do love that image, it's perfectly pretty! xxx

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  8. Thoughts and prayers to you...you have a plateful, but God will guide you and watch over you...feel free to share...we bloggers have this connection now, and it helps us all. Take care, and God Bless!

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  9. Oh JJ. For crying out loud. I just cannot even tell you how sad and angry this makes me. How much is one person...you...supposed to take. I just...well, I don't even know. All I can do is keep you in prayers, continually. Which I will be doing, starting now. It's going to be okay; it just has to be.

    I will also keep your MIL in my prayers. As well as those who do not know how to play nice with others; they are going to need it. In the meantime, I agree 150% with your approach. You need to keep yourself as free of stress as possible...for your health...and also just because...hey, who needs that crap, EVER. Take care of you!

    Love, hugs, and prayers my dear friend.

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  10. Oh, I am so sorry to hear all this news. You can beat this thing...I just know you can and will. Prayers going up for you from here, dear lady. Praying for you MIL full recovery too.

    Leaving you lots of warm, get well hugs.

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  11. Jojo, sorry to hear your news. You sound like a very brave woman and have your priorities set....like your own health right now. It is your responsibility to look after yourself first. The MIL has family to do the same for her...in their fashion.
    We, Ron , I and Sophie, are sending our best positive energy your way and know you will get through this set back in no time.
    Thanks for your comment on charities....much appreciated.
    Jim

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  12. G'eve Jojo ~ I am so sorry to learn of the diagnosis, but I have friends who have had this & they have done fine for many years after the removal ... prayers lifting that the same will be your diagnosis.

    So sorry to learn of your MILs medical issues ... when it rains it pours it seems. Family issues always make these times even more difficult.

    Take good care of yourself, Jojo. You are very important.

    Have a great eve ~
    TTFN ~ Hugs & prayers, Marydon

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  13. Oh goodness..

    Hon, you sound very upbeat and positive, so even hearing this news, I'm sure everything is going to be fine. I'll keep you in my prayers of course. I'm hoping you MIL will pull through quickly too.

    I admire your attitude about taking care of yourself. You have to. Sometimes, you just have to put "you" first. Sending you big hugs and we're here!!

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  14. JoJo do not be sorry for anything. you have to care for yourself first. I have a friend who is a thyroid cancer survivor and you will be too! Hugs and prayers coming at you!
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  15. JoJo do not be sorry for anything. you have to care for yourself first. I have a friend who is a thyroid cancer survivor and you will be too! Hugs and prayers coming at you!
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  16. HI Jojo....wow you are in a tough spot! My heart goes out to you! I can't imagine all that is going through your head right now. I will make sure I keep you & your family in my prayers. Yes...you are going through enough that in-law drama would be so painful right now! I have a lot of in-law drama & even when life is going great it is too much! I pray God wil especially protect you from that right now too! take care & I wil try to check back soon!

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  17. Jojo, I am glad you got that task over with by having the family meeting. I am glad others can now pray for you too. I love ya friend, always will. I love your positive thinking!! All is going to be ok, I know. Tell the people being nasty to go away and not come back until they can be nice. Your MIL is in my thoughts and prayers also. Remember I am here!!

    God Bless~
    Debbie Jean

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  18. Hi sweetie, I don't know if you know that I had breast cancer 26 years ago. It's a long story and I'm still here to talk about it. We are all survivors of some kind.

    You fight this with whatever you have to and don't make excuses to anyone. Don't apologize to anyone and, for heaven's sake, let go of anyone who causes you stress and doesn't care about what you're going through. This is the time for you to be "selfish" about yourself. It's OK.
    I'm wishing you strength and perseverance and love, Jojo. It will be alright.

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  19. I guess I missed this post yesterday, but the Lord brought you to mind last night. I am praying that you will be given good news after the surgery. We'll be praying for you.

    Blessings, dear Jojo!

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  20. Joanne, You have alot of wonderful followers praying for you.Stay strong, i'm here for you. Love Scott

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  21. JoJo honey what kind of friend am I. The last to know what your going through. I feel so bad that I did not know. Please forgive me and know honey that I have you in my prayers. You are such a strong lady and I know that you will beat this and I just wish I could be there for you while you are going through your treatments.
    Keep your head up and write me
    grandmayellowhair@gmail.com
    I love you and sending everything positive in your direction
    Love
    Maggie

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