Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Trail of Tears...
I hate to be a complainer, O.K., I don't like it. I don't like the way it feels, the way it sounds nor the level of stress it causes me. But there are times when life hands you so damn many lemons but forgets to throw in the sugar and water...so it sucks.
It also makes for a very depressing blog so even though I could write the blog of misery I choose not to. I choose life. But this week life has chosen our family.
A couple of weeks ago I asked you all to keep me in your thoughts and send up some good wishes on a wing and a prayer for me as I was having some tests done. Afterwards, I couldn't say much about what was happening since my children were out of town and unavailable for a special talk. With that done and everyone on the same page I will let my bloggy friends know that I have been diagnosed with Thyroid cancer, papillary to be exact with the high probability of lymphoma. I will be having a lymph node resection on Oct. 8 and we will go forward with treatment at that time. I am not yet sure of what treatment will involve, it depends on that little lymph node, but, this type of cancer is very treatable and highly survivable. In fact, I am sure several of you have gone through this and will be a great help to me.
That aside, last night my mother-in-law had a stroke. They called it a TIA all day but upgraded it to a stroke tonight. She is resting well, and in fact was the first one to tell me that she had gone to the hospital. *she has her cell phone in the room with her* She does have some short term memory loss (she kept asking me the same question over and over) and some numbness in her tongue which causes her to slur her words. We have been assured by the doctor that these things will improve over the next few days as they get her new meds adjusted.
As much as I love and care for my in-laws, the drama that is that family is very difficult for me to handle. I am trying to step back and stay out of the way of the barbs and insults that continue even now. I can't be part of something so stupid when someone is sick and especially when it puts my own health in danger. I have to protect my heart...I have to. If that comes across as harsh then I do apologize...it is what I have to do. Is it Friday yet??