...I've been thinking about this post for days. What I was going to say, how I would say it, word it. Whether or not I would remember all the things I need to purge from my mind. Should I just jump in or maybe it's time to jump out...I don't know, I didn't realize that I would have to start somewhere. hmmmmmm...
recently I read a post that was so moving to me. Deb always has a way of speaking to my spirit and calming my soul. She has the most wonderful outlook on life despite some very real and surprising difficulties. I always leave there wishing that I had her photography talent and her gift of words.
After three years and 400+ posts I still feel that I really have nothing to say. I know how strange that sounds but looking back I don't think that I have shared the things I imagined I would when I started blogging. I usually keep things lite and rarely share much of the real me. Not that I don't want to. There are things that need to be shared, need to be put to paper for that someday when my grand-children see this. So much to explain, so difficult to do so. Why?
I hesitate to bring up some things in my life that are truly difficult to understand, difficult to explore, difficult to dig through the emotion and bring it all to fruition. It would be easy enough to do here in blogland...just put it all out there, afterall, they are just words without meaning when we don't know who we are. But there's the rub. Some of you do know me. My children come here and I have yet to share many of these things with them. It would be so much easier if I had nothing invested here. Or would it?
I am desperately trying to find balance, in every sense of the word. Physically, I am struggling and mentally...well...it's a crazy mess in there! I will be working through some things here, both on the blog and in my life. There will be some changes coming, more of the real me and more of the old me. I want you to leave here thinking that I have touched your spirit in a tender way and made your heart smile.
See you in a few days~~