"the nicest and the sweetest days are not those on which anything very splendid or wonderful or exciting happens, but just those that bring simple pleasure, following one another softly, like pearls slipping off a string." Lucy Maud Montgomery
Friday, November 13, 2009
...I want to thank you all for your comments, e-mails, good thoughts, prayers and hugs. I can feel them all and it is a salve to my soul. I am so Blessed to have found such love in such a strange place.
I am hanging in, the toughest days of remembering are almost over, soon the days of emptyness and "why" will begin. It is a whole different level of grief. It was many years after the loss before I was filled in on the truth of that day...I think that makes it harder for me. At the time I was in a bad place, hooked up to monitors, blood transfusions, all kinds of misery. I think that the concensus was that people were protecting me by keeping things back, which I truly understand. But then the anger sets in and I feel cheated that I didn't know...all I can say is that this whole mess was handled poorly from the start, my poor baby never had a chance.
confession time: I have never told another soul the things I have confided on these pages...
I promise to be back to myself soon and share with you some really fun blogs that I have been reading the last few weeks. Take care.
Like the cool rain that cleans the air and brings nourishment to flowers, tears are sacred messengers of love. Today I am Grateful for tears.